I hope you get disability since that's what you want.

But...you need to make plans in case you don't instead of putting your eggs in one basket.I believe there's jobs that you could work if you tried.Even if it's something like cleaning offices or buildings at night after they close.That way you would be working by yourself.I have worked those types of jobs in the past and I definitely made more than if I had gone on disability.And then I worked up to other jobs and gradually was able to work with others and even with the public.

Sometimes you just gotta bite the bullet and start somewhere.