I haven't admitted this to anyone before but I want your honest opinions on it please.
I split with my husband last year because I found out he was cheating. I knew something was wrong and had been eating like mad because I felt low.
When we split I decided to lose the weight. I lost 3 and a half stone to now.
Now I weigh 111 pounds and am 5ft6 just so you get an idea of my body size etc.
I am still doing slim fast and for my dinner I eat a stir fry as lean as I can get with brown rice, although it's usually just the veg and meat I eat. I weigh myself every day. If I happen to eat anything fattening I feel massive almost as soon as I have eaten it and the next day I feel huge. I regularly take diuretics to lose excess water or I feel bloated. I have started checking my BMI a lot online and realised today that I felt really dissappointed that it only came up as 18.2. I wanted it to be lower and played around with the figures to see how much more I need to lose. I am having a boob job in 7 weeks time as I have practically no breasts (32a) now that I lost weight. I don't really see myself as looking any different to before I started.
Do you think I have an eating disorder?
The scary thing is that even if I do, I don't feel like I'm ready to stop just yet.
I don't know what to do.
Help!