I am not sure why I am sharing this but ...... Well, I actually do know why I am sharing it. Because I have no one else to talk to (besides my T). And I am in so much pain. I feel very lonely. I have not felt lonely.....hhmmmm... never, until now.
I cut people off out of my life very quickly. it is a defense mechanism. I have been like this for as long as I can remember but it has become more defined as I got older; to a point where I literally have no one. Not even an emergency contact!
I standby the reasons why I cut people out of my life. I see red flags and I immediately remove myself from that friendship.
I am terrified of people. I am so very scared of them. I had seen a bear once and I was not scared at all. But people.... they terrify me.
And, forget about having a partner or a significant other. I have been single for over a decade.... completely single....
This is what happens when you cut people out of your life.... sitting by the fire place, fearful and tearful.
Thank you for reading,
From my living room,
FallDuskTrain