I don't feel like the person I am supposed to be. It's not really that I have all these expectations I don't meet, but more like I feel like I was never really meant to be here in the first place. I hate my surroundings and the people I live around/talk to. In my head I'll get this sudden urge to remodel my bedroom and/or wardrobe, but I always end up losing interest and if I already started I regret it. It's weird because these thoughts to change everything pop up and leave so suddenly. Some of my more common themes I'd like to change to are past decades, like 50s, 80s, and 90s. Some of my family members have told me they think I'm bipolar, but this has never been confirmed. This probably makes no sense, but if you think you understand or have some ideas on how I could stop these urges and thoughts please comment!