i wanted to come back to this topic without the controversial term involving 'character xxxx'. My judgement is not as bad as when I've been severely ill but I am impulsive at times or simply not able to see the right decision, even if I think about it.

I've done things even recently I'm just appalled by. Even some of my instantaneous driving decisions recently have scared me in retrospect.

I wonder if making bad decisions, just like making good decisions can be habit forming. My one great hope for the new year is to make healthy, sane decisions.