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Originally Posted by Heir2theThorn
Still trying to figure out what's going on with me and had another incident this morning. [I am fairly new here and understand there's some etiquette around trigger warnings. I don't think any of the follow would be triggering but please someone set me straight if I'm posting incorrectly.]
Wondering if there's anyone on here who has flashbacks that involve speech only (i.e. screaming or crying out words that sound like the speech of a very young child), and/or body stuff (e.g. menstrual-like cramps, hand pain, odd hand conformation)?
With one exception (that I don't even know is real), I've never had a visual image or feeling of "actual memory" with one of these incidents. I'm just here in the present, feeling emotions, body sensations, and saying words and I don't know why.
Anyone who started off with zero memory of any trauma and had/has only this type of flashback?
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I have had many kinds of flashbacks..to under stand this you might need to know what my location / treatment provider calls a flashback....
here where I am a flashback is remembering as if something is happening for real, its a psychosis type of reaction where sometimes a person may lose touch with reality.
example of normal flashbacks that I have.....
smelling this mornings breakfast as if I was still cooking or eating it, while at work talking about our mornings.
hearing last nights tv show playing in my head as if its on a tv right now
while thinking about my childhood hearing in my head, my voice as if i was that child still....
here where I am flashbacks are all mental... a sound, smell, taste, image, emotion.... happening in my mind.
sometimes that flashback can seem so real that my behaviors reflect the same behaviors I did during the first time I had that event happen...
example my wife was driving the car down a tree lined street, I suddenly felt like I did when I was a child and a tree limb fell on our family car, I physically ducked and yelled the same swear word I did when i was a child.
Ive read your past posts, you have a therapist. they would be the best person to ask what these things are with in you and whether its a flashback with you, or your panic anxiety problem or any other mental or physical health problem you may have. even medications can cause a person to suddenly feel like a child during those examples of your life you gave. All I can do is tell you what happens with in me and what my own treatment providers call things in me.