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Originally Posted by kecanoe
LT: What I am doing with my break-maybe forever, is to try to just be curious about the emotions that come up. And wait and see what happens. I have decided not to decide if I am continuing until the 12th (I would cancel my appts for the 16th and 23rd that day-I feel like that is a reasonable amount of notice). In the meantime, I've felt free, happy, relieved, determined, disgusted, scared, lost. And probably some other things. I just have not made the decision, yet, about what I will do.
It's kind of hard to sit in limbo, but I think it is easier than deciding yes, no, maybe, a longer break, a shorter break etc. and then changing my mind every hour-or minute.
My goal is, even if I decide to cancel the remaining appts on T3s schedule, I will still think of it as a "not now". I mean, it's not like a divorce. I don't have to make a forever decision. This is definitely different thinking for me. We'll see how it goes.
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Forgot you were also taking a break! That's helpful to know what you're doing. Are you journaling them or anything? So far, I've felt a strange mix of sadness and relief. It feels a bit like I've broken up with someone...yet odd because I have plans to see them in a month.
MC has also said it doesn't have to be a set decision. Seeing how it feels after a month. But he said we can always call and come in sooner, like if something happens (huge fight, some sort of major stressor) or just changed our mind. And once we do actually terminate his door is always open if we want to come back. So that makes it easier...