I guess that I have low self esteem. Some people say that I am great; and then I don't really believe it for some reason. I have never liked for myself having been shy and not much of a go getter all of my life. So many times I think that others can do their lives so much better than I could. I especially have hated the way I am when it came to get someone to become a mate of mine.

I've gotten older and I feel like I have always been the way I am. So changing myself seems harder now. I feel like I've just accepted the way things are now for me.

Ray Romano, the star of the show "Everybody Loves Raymond" one time said that everyone loves Raymond except Raymond.