I'm really upset with you for activating this "what I want doesn't matter" **** from years ago. It doesn't matter that it was years ago my mother made me feel like that constantly. It's like I've gone back in time inside my head and it's happening now. And it took me a week and a ****ing half to realize it!!! You trying to schedule after I'd said I wasn't coming back, and not wanting to give me the closure that I want, and never doing the sand tray you said we could do and kept pushing it off without giving me a reason - all 3 of those things brought it to the surface again. And now I don't know what to do with it. And damn it, I don't want to come there and talk about it. **** this ****. Because what I want does matter. To me.