Someone who had been talking to me and sometimes seeing me just kind of stopped talking to me out of the blue. I didn't ask him why, I just kind of shut down to protect myself. It was one thing that was helping me at little through this time (to a point, that is). He didn't even wish me a Happy New Year. Maybe I'm being too sensitive, but I am just hurt and feel like I am not worthy.

I didn't even do anything that would scare the average person away....I hate wondering why? So I need to distract myself and not care so much, but it is hard. On top of it, I still feel I am anxious, depressed, and the paranoia is still in the background, although I suppress it during the daytime. Tomorrow, I am not going to work due to a bad snow storm. I plan to use that opportunity to rest.