Every day since.....2002. Ive probably had suicidal thoughts since I was 14yo, so that’s over 30yrs!

TRIGGER

(2002 I tried to OD on a ton of pills. I take vitamins & minerals every day. So to take them everyday triggers the thought process.)

How severe the thoughts are depends on my mood. Sometimes, most, it’s not great. Rarely I can dismiss it.
But I’m also very comfortable with the idea of death, talking about death, & I research it a great deal. I find it fascinating to study.
So the call is there everyday. Sometimes I walk with it & sometimes I’m in the shadow of it.