Kiya,
I totally understand your feelings! I so attached to my T that it hurts! When he tells me that he cares for me but not in the way that I want, it is excruciating. It is so difficult to care for someone more than he cares for you, which to me defines the therapeutical relationship. I'm sorry - I know this is not the best of advice, it's not very positive and I apologize for that. I will continue to go to therapy because I just can't stay away however torturous it is. You're not alone.