You are worth the fight. You are loved by your family, I'm sure. Each of us is invaluable and mean so much to others. You are not some cog in a wheel. If you think you are not worth it, just ask your mother's opinion. Life is not about accomplishments. It is about how you lived your life. I was homeless once and saw reality in its rawest form. I met others who were prostitutes, addicts, vagrants, etc. They opened my eyes to see that life is not about what and who you are but how you live. Please live your life by enjoying what you have. You must appreciate your sight, your hearing, your able-body, and other small things life has granted you. Some people have nothing in life and are happy while some have all the riches and are miserable. How you see your life is affected by your feelings. So, please don't give up fighting. I'm rooting for you to fight the good fight!! Also, please continue writing here about how you feel. These phases of despair come and go. However, if your despair continues, please talk to your doctor and also if you have a therapist, please address this issue. I hope if you are on medications that you are taking them as prescribed. Best wishes!!