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Originally Posted by Heir2theThorn
Can anyone who has a lot of co-consciousness with their alters, particularly child or baby alters, describe what they experience?
Also wondering if anyone can selectively suppress their alters, and if so how do you do it and how does it make you feel?
Could someone only let a child alter out under conditions of complete privacy (like hiding in a bathroom under a blankie with a pillow to cry into so no one can hear the child) and have anxiety or panic symptoms from having to suppress it when no privacy is available?
Sorry if these are weird questions... just following a lead from a different post, stabbing in the dark here.
Oops, also forgot to ask, what is the difference between "experiencing one's inner child" and experiencing an actual child alter?
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Co con with a child... hm. For me, it's not really any different than the co con I have with others... just an awareness of what is going on that I know isn't a dream, or that it really happened. I'm guessing you mean like how does it feel? I dunno, but it doesn't make me feel kiddish or anything unless I am the one up front and center, so to speak, and I am feeling one of them inside. Then I totally feel a lil revved up or 'wide eyed' or giggly, or timid, 'small' or scared... depends on the child or their mood, I suppose.
I cannot really suppress anyone else in my system. For me, it's one of those it's either gonna happen or it's not kinda things. That goes for either if I am fronting and will be impacted by someone else (then all I can really do is try to cope with whatever I'm being impacted with) or if they will just show up and I'll get shoved to the metaphorical back. Yep.
The last group of us who did the life thing (my system is kinda divided up into groups) could designate specific safe times for one little in particular. She'd show up now and then and play on webkinz. Heh. This group of us now can't do that. Goes back to that gonna happen or it won't thing. But yeah, say I have a little one inside freaking out when I am up front and center, I will definitely feel the impact from that and most likely fall apart until I can ground and center or do whatever it is I need to do to start bouncing back from that. Littles can pack one hell of an emotional punch for me.
As for inner child v/s actual child part, for me... hm. Oh swing example. When it is me embracing my inner child, I might think to myself, hm, you know what I wanna do? Play on those swings, then I make the choice to go play on those swings. When it is child part, I am aware of my body running to those swings and swinging, but it was not my choice to do so in that moment. If it is me being impacted by a child part, I might be at that park and looking at, say fall leaves thinking how nice they are, then hear a thought that lets me know there are swings over there and feel a sense of excitement about those swings and so I'll go on those swings to satisfy that part of me, knowing it was them and not me because I was all into the leaves before then.
-Avery
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(dx list: DID/PTSD, ASD, GAD, OCD, LMNOP)