I am also sending you my thoughts, and prayers to help you through your depression. I know how hard it can be, I've ben there, and done that if you know what I mean, but the man upstairs must have a plan still for me because I am still here. I have several medical issues that could take me, let alone my own depression, but here I am, in 2018. I am now 52, gunna be 53 in June, and I thought that I wouldn't make 13, or 24, or 43, or 44, or 45, ect the rest of the years up to my present age today. I am ok today, but I may not be tomorrow. That is the thing with depression, so I try to take it one day at a time. Sometimes I have to take it one hour, or one minute, or even one second at a time, and sometimes that hasn't helped, and I ended up in the hospital under guard. I try not to let myself get that bad. The last time I was that bad was in 2011. First I was in icu, then I was transferred, and under guard 24/7. I don't wish for anyone to feel that bad. Like I already said, I send you my thoughts, and prayers.