((((( jacq10 ))))) im sorry to hear that you're feeling so badly... you cant be all that awful, maybe just struggling to let your better self show?

i'm guilty of negative feelings at times also towards people IRL... if they just didnt seem so clueless!

each time i tell myself how ive got to stop doing that, and try to remember all the good things i want to happen and how my negative attitude isnt going to bring them any closer...

but in the moment...

i hope its practice, practice, practice..

i really hope the SI days number gets high...