I stopped seeing old T a year ago because I simply could not carry on, I feared having a breakdown if I did, I had been seeing her for about a year. Stopping was physically and emotional painful. I liked her so much. It took me a long time to come to terms with it. I felt so bad I didn't even post on here about it - though I had been posting up until I stopped. I have a good T now, and things are going very well with me. Looking back I consider that my old T made mistakes, and also that I couldn't feel secure talking to her, the way I do with my current T. I never did an ending with the old T, and I keep wondering whether to go back to do an ending. I wonder if it would help me to feel better about that therapy? I think she was at heart a good T, but not for me. I also so want to see her again. The thing that is holding me back from contacting her is the fear that if I see her for a session it could go badly and make me feel worse about it. I fear that she lost confidence in her work with me. I'm posting on here in the hope that discussing it might help me to decide what to do, so I hope people respond and give me their thoughts or experiences to help me think about it some more.