Sounds like therapy was more harmful than helpful for you. I don't blame you for feeling alive and free right now.

IMO, we should always do what's best for ourselves. If therapy is damaging, then it is creating more problems than what we started with, and there is no sense in putting ourselves through that.

If you do need therapy in the future, maybe a different therapist would be better. It sounds like this one is not suited to be a therapist if she's controlling/abusive. In fact, I would recommend reporting her if she truly is that way because she is probably hurting other patients as well.