I am still feeling calm due to our session yesterday. I am glad that I was able to articulate to you all of my feelings and thoughts, and the confusion about them. It's as if I need another person, an authority figure, to validate how I feel and what I think or else it causes me to enter a state of complete confusion. I know that I am supposed to be able to do this myself, but as I said earlier, I don't have control over this. I am not choosing not to be able to validate or believe my inner experience. It just is. Although this realization has been scary, it actually is validating my inability to solve this on my own, and it is helping me to feel compassion for myself instead of being judgmental of myself. I really needed all of that.