Well, I'm continuing to try and self soothe tonight. i'm still quite upset by what happened and still feeling a lot of anxiety, but I feel proud of myself that I'm continuing to deal with it by self soothing and using my coping techniques versus getting confrontational or like trying to soothe my emotions by projecting the anger at someone else or the other negative things I might do. I actually might admit that this anxiety feels stronger than other times but I think it's because I actually know what the emotion is I'm identifying? Whereas in the past I would just get anger and act out in a rage. And then feel better because I took it out on someone else. So, this is definitely harder than relying on my negative coping skills BUT I won't end up ruining my life by saying or doing something stupid while angry.

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