Saw my new pdoc today. He upped my lamictal dose to 200, prescribed 40 mg geodon for my mixed episode. It was like 2 hours after i took the geodon with food i felt calm and not irritable. He also switched me from valium to ativan because he said its more activating and valium can make people depressed. I took an ativan and didnt feel the groggy crabby sad feeling of valium. A few hours after my first dose of geodon kicked in, i took a one hour nap and woke up feeling better. Me and my pdoc also talked about our common jewish faith and love of parrots. The pharmacy was right inside the clinic so that was nice too. The pill bottles are neon blue so i will always get my meds from there for now on. I still feel blah but better.