Today's session was brutal. We discussed which parts of my journal made me feel anxious to share. He quickly figured out the 3 main themes: self-harm, suicidal thoughts, and anything to do with our relationship.

Then we had to talk about last night and my mini-breakdown. How I'm always leaving sessions feeling too raw and vulnerable. How I get too overwhelmed and don't handle it well. How he feels like he hasn't done his job. How I'm always getting triggered by things I watch or read. I tried to tell him it's not like I'm seeking this stuff out, it just finds me and did he want me to live in a box. I cried a lot. He asked to see where I cut myself, which made me feel so ashamed but I showed him and I cried some more. He kept me an extra 10 minutes. I tried to get up and leave when we were just a few minutes over and he said "I'm not done yet", which I thought was funny and kind of cute.