A lot of my abuse stems from recovered memories and so, as I get older I find that I have issues with telling the fake from the real?

As an example, I was laying in bed staring at my popcorn ceiling a few nights ago and I had a sudden flashback. My issue is that I can never tell what is an actual memory and what is just my mind filling in blanks.

This particular flashback contained someone asking me a question of a sexual nature that made me deeply uncomfortable. It’s just hard to figure out why my brain is readily supplying random dialogue and images, if they’re not real? But also some times I start to think it’s just a symptom of the panic attack induced by the flashback and that I’m “filling in blanks” as a means to understand.

I don’t know but they’re becoming more frequent and troublesome