I’m sorry. I do understand how you feel. I just recently graduated high school. It ended with me being in a depressive episode, which did drop my marks, which then made my depression worse, which made my marks worse, etc.. So I was in this big loophole. For me, this was triggered by being off medication, or at least, I believe.

Anyways, I have read that now, getting good grades are really pressed on kids these days, which I can believe. It is said that if you don’t do good, then you won’t get a good job, which stresses people out. It’s sad how our society places a high emphasis on education. I know it’s important, but your health is much more important, which includes mental health.

I know you said your IQ is high, but depression can get in the way of that, along with other conditions like learning disabilities, AD/HD, anxiety, etc.. I know that having a high IQ and learning disability are quite common comorbids.

Is there any way for you to get access to school support like accommodations, or talking to a counsellor there? At my school, I saw a social worker twice a month, and also a child and youth worker once a week, along with having accommodations like having extra time on test and writing in a separate room. I found these very helpful. Or is there a teacher you could talk to? I talked to many teachers at my high school for support.

I relate to your situation very much.