Hi everyone this is my first post here, so hopefully i'm going about this right. I would be grateful for any advice. Recently my boyfriend has been saying that I've become *****y and that i have developed an attitude problem, however, I can't see it. We've been together for almost two years and has said these past few months I've had an attitude and that i "take everything out on him". I always fight back and say I'm fine and that I feel like there's nothing wrong with me, but quite honestly the more he says it the more I feel like I begin to develop an issue. I wish I could tell if I was being rational or not, since it is very difficult for me to see when I am in the wrong or if I am being irrationally angry. We are suposed to be moving into an apartment together in a few weeks and I'm scared that this is going to continue. He says I need to drop this issue and change my attitude for us to work, and I tell him I'll try, but HOW CAN I DO SOMETHING WHEN I DONT KNOW IF I AM EVEN THE ISSUE?

I have always trusted him to tell me when I am acting off or such, and he has always done a good job of that. But recently I feel like he has become super critical of me and if he does something that bothers me I can't say anything about it without him giving me this whole attitude thing. I know I am to blame as well because I do overreact and cry a lot, but I told him when I met I do have BPD and I may not be the easiest person to deal with. I will not end it with him, but I'm scared he is getting to the point of ending it with me. I am trying to help myself, but I am no longer on medication, and I do not have the time or money to see a therapist, which is why I am here.

I feel as if I have become "too comfortable" with him, so now my true colors are showing I guess. I'm really trying to improve myself and my irrational anger, so if anyone has any tips or advice to help me deal with myself and/or the situation I would appreciate it. Thank you