I missed a call from my t recently, so she left a voicemail.

I have started to listen to this occasionally when I'm not feeling so good or when there's a longer gap in therapy (usually go once a week) but was not able to over Christmas. Listening to it, helps me feel connected and I find it comforting listening to her voice.

But I also feel really ashamed for doing this and there's a small part of me that's paranoid she will somehow know every time I listen to it (know that's not possible though). I also feel guilty, she didn't leave that voicemail knowing I would do this and she might not be ok with it and I'm worried she'll think I'm weird.
Just looking for people's opinions on this, anyone else do something similar?