i can relate to worrying that a therapist or dr will somehow know if i've been on their website or something like that.
my therapist recorded a long meditation for me on my phone, but it actually freaks me out to listen to it and i've only ever got through one or two minutes. i don't like hearing him out of the room he's meant to be in! it makes me really anxious like there's a stranger in the house.
i understand why people would find it comforting to listen to stuff like that though. for me it feels more like a mixed up thing where i feel ashamed to need attention and care, so actually listening to something like that is such an admission of that need it makes me feel really yuck and vulnerable and scared.