I totally get this. I moved out of state from the T I was working with over a year ago. It was an "okay" relationship with the T I left. I liked her, she was well trained and worked to make the relationship work. She was not abusive, narcissistic or horrible like yours, but I just wasn't feeling as though it served any purpose anymore. I had been going for about a year or so with that T.


After moving, I went to a few appointments with "possible" new Ts and it just wasn't helpful. I found myself tired of talking about my issues, irritated and impatient with the styles of the Ts and so, I just stopped making any more appointments and I stopped looking up possible "new" Ts. I've been out of therapy for a little over a year and I'm happy about my decision. Do I still have problems. Sure. Have I handled them. Yep. Am I thriving? Most days. But then, I think that most humans have their off days, their so/so days, and then a few really really GREAT days. It's okay and it's workable. I wish you good luck with whatever you decide!