I have talked to my t about suicide. She has told me that she would be som saddened. I told her not to ever blame herself. I wouldn’t want this for my family either. I do need to talk about it though. It is in my mind frequently. I talk about it to try to take away some of its power over me. Also if I was going to do it I would want to talk to t inc case she could offer me some hope and I wouldn’t have to go through with it. I hope that doesn’t sound manipulative. I would just want to see her or talk to her.