I discuss suicide very frequently and casually with T. Current T is very, very good at early interventions/not letting the thoughts get too bad...if I tell her early enough...she even has told me that she will drive my butt to the hospital herself if that’s what she needs to do to keep me safe. Recently I wrote in my journal (which she reads) about my suicidal thoughts, instead of telling her right away...boy, she was not happy with me for that one. Lesson learned...

As far as you wanting her to worry...I don’t personally believe that’s manipulative. I think that’s natural. You want to know that your T cares about you and would care/be affected if you weren’t around anymore. It’s good to feel cared about, and that’s one of many ways to feel it.

I think there’s so much comfort in talking to T about it because it’s a subject that’s very hard to talk about casually with other people. T’s are usually the only ones that understand/don’t overreact to such sentiments, in my experience.