I agree that it is good that you talked to your t about it. We all need a safe place to talk about it. I am glad that my t understands that I may not say the exact words "I am suicidal" even if I am feeling that way and she is fully aware that

Also, having conversations with t about it made it less jarring when pdoc asked me directly last month. I can handle the conversations now. So, confused, keep talking!! And posting here!!