Welcome.love the way you said at a different sky from mine. That is a beautiful image. Do you write? If you can paint that image in other than your native language, bet you can write very well. Could you find a group or class doing something you like....like writing??!! Be around other people, out of your house for awhile. Seems to me your feelings are perfectly normal given your situation. Please write here again...I'll be looking forward to it. When you feel like it, would you tell us from where you view the sky?