I've talked about it with my therapist on multiple occasions. I've told him what my plan is and the times when I came really close to following through, I told him afterwards. It's really uncomfortable to talk about. I feel a lot of shame about it. I've also told him that not wanting to hurt him is one of the reasons I haven't followed through with it. I sometimes wonder if he takes me seriously, though, or just thinks I'm trying to get attention.