So my husband wants to go after his masters degree. He would start part time working towards his AS degree. He thinks he can handle part time.Every time we’ve tried school BP gets in the way by us signing up when manic and failing out depressed. He’s not manic but fear of the future. He doesn’t want to do the co-ops after my son graduates 2.5 years. However he feels that he can do it because he volunteers for 8 hours So he wants to be an adjunct at our local college when everything is done. Now we’ll have to take out loans for him to go. I’m worried because he can only make so much for me to keep SSI / medicaid (which we need given that our meds are well over $1k each.) and we’d have to pay the loan too.

He plans to go online so he can continue his volunteering. However I’ll have to be encouraging. Especially when he gets depressed. I know it will be hard and he’s taking his medication intermittently. I’m worried this will end in a hospitalization. I’m jealous he feels well enough. I’ve thought of going back but know I can’t. He’s already saying if he fails out he’ll feel like a failure. I don’t want him to feel that way. I worry about being left alone when he’s an adjunct. I know that’s about 12 years from now but I’m a planner. I need to get a handle on my own **** or I’ll end up IOP or IP. I wish I had a T to talk to. For this to work I need to stay well too. He can’t succeed if he has to visit me IP or worry about my health. On top of this he signed me up to volunteer for 6 hrs 1x a week. I feel everything is quickly becoming too much. How do I try making this a reality without becoming more unhinged? I’m already stressing and it’s just ideas.