I can sense that I’m crashing. I don’t feel it exactly but I look around me and know it’s true. The major clues being the mess in my bedroom, and my lack of showering.
But, I don’t really know what to do about it. I’m not bad enough to cause an issue, I just know where this is heading.
The thing is, I’m sort of willing myself to get as bad as possible
At the same time I know I need to stay here. It’s hard.
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Tired of feeling lost, tired of letting go.
Tear the whole world down, tear the whole world down.
Tired of wasting breath, tired of nothing left.
Tear the whole world down, tear the whole world down.
Failure.
Failure - Breaking Benjamin