I wonder if your T caught a different tone or note about touching, and had one of those moments in which he wondered if he was doing what is best for you? I am sure he didnt mean to hurt you, but likely he didnt understand how you would feel now.

My T has a three foot rule for all his clients ( I think he has a very possessive wife). This is good with me. I cant really imagine hugging him, although I hug lots of friends etc. He is just very . . . intentional about every object in his office, where he sits etc.

That doesnt make it any easier of the feelings less strong. I feel crushed and brokenhearted sometimes when he pushes me to confide a tough secret I've kept all my life, then never checks on me and just doesnt seem to care what happens to me until the next fifty minutes.

They might care about us, but not the way we need them too- that real love is in real life, but it feels so real at times in therapy.