possibly... but honesty i think trying to set up a "Safe" way to work through it would be have been the best resolution and not just blow me off.

he said before, just weeks ago and then confirmed again today as i was saying this, that it was ok to put my arm around him, so I'm confused why he says I'm not allowed to touch him casually, isn't that basically what that is? idk, i may ask for more clarification next time.... ask if i ask before hand if we can do it once or twice because right now i am feeling so awful about even feeling these desires, there is no possible way ill ever be able to work through this if i cant even do it in my so called safe space.