I understand what you must be feeling..I myself have been hurt by a man I had been with for about 2 years. He doesn't understand why I can't just forget the pain he has caused me that hurt me so much. People sometimes don't fully know the damage they can cause a person that truly loves them. I would never hurt anyone, intentionally, and wasn't strong enough like you have been, not to answer when he calls sometimes...May you find peace with this situation soon.