Hi all, I just really need someone to talk to.

I found a lump in my right breast a few days ago. I'm not the greatest at doing self exams, so I'm a little concerned about how long it's been there. I don't believe it's been but a couple of weeks, if that. It's about the size of a marble and I can't really tell if its mobile or attached. It moves around, but feels like it's attached also. I had a total abdominal hysterectomy, keeping my ovaries, one month ago. If I were to start my period, it would be next week. Tonight I noticed that my breast itches on the side, similar to something I noticed the last time I had a period. I didn't really make note of it last time because I wasn't aware of a lump. My breasts typically swell before my period and I just attributed it to the swelling causing the itching. I do have fibrous breasts and they have always been lumpy, uneven. I've read and heard that I will likely have PMS symptoms, even though I won't have a period. Wondering if my hormones are just responding to the trauma of surgery, waking back up, and have caused a cyst to form. But remembering that my breasts itched last time has put me in a tailspin of anxious thoughts.

Argh!

And I can't really talk to anyone about this. I don't want to scare my family, my boyfriend is out of state caring for his ailing mother and I really don't want to add to his plate, and my girlfriend wasn't able to hang out with me tonight and texting to a friend this fear is not the way to go.

I do have a Dr appt on the 9th, next Tuesday.

I would just really like to hear some encouraging words. The fear is overwhelming.