Thank you both so much.

Little has changed, and I've made poorly on my promises and not sought counseling. It's so easy to say and so difficult to do. Although I do realize we can't keep living like this.

I will definitely try to find that book! Anything would be wonderful when these particularly nasty days happen. Sometimes I really feel like I can't take it anymore, and I never again want to experience anything like that near mental breakdown I had after the worst of the fights...

Thank you both so much...