Mona, if you don't want to go back - who (or what inner voice) is telling you that you *should* go back?
Looking after yourself, the yoga and the painting sounds great. Maybe this is the time for self-care and tenderly looking after yourself. And maybe that's "enough" for the time being.
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One of the girls I trained with is a somatic therapist and I was always fascinated by the way she worked, I was really drawn to how gentle it was.
I would like to try something new but I am afraid to try anything to do with therapy just yet. For now I am sticking with yoga
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My art T was at the same time a somatic experiencing practitioner. Which was wonderful. In a very gentle way she picked up on my bodily expressions. Showed me strategies how to better regulate myself and my emotions, when I#m in distress. In fact I was doing a lot of it already, on a intuitive level. Her poiting those things out to me helped me to actually "register" that there are things that I can do. Simple things. But effective, yet very gentle.
For the time being I'm quite happy without T. Knowing myself, I know that other times will come. And my psychiatrist urges me to at least find a new T and maybe have just monthly sessions, but she wants me to have someone in place, should things get worse again. Because looking for a (new) T when in distress isn't the best place to start and might actually twist my own perception quite a bit...
I know that this makes sense, but for now I just want to enjoy my freedom. I think you should enjoy this too.
love, c_r