I talk to my T and Pdoc about my thoughts. Thankfully, my Pdoc found a medication that has basically wiped all those thoughts. It's so freeing not being burdened by them. But some passive thoughts still come up if I'm dealing with any sort of stressor. I can talk to my T about everything: thoughts, feelings, details, etc. She doesn't check-in with me unless I sound like I lost all hope. She knows I'm safe if there's a fight left in me. But it's my history too. I've suffered from thought since I was 13. It's nothing new. I've been with T for over 2.5 years, never made an attempt. And my T is part of my safety plan. If the meds and coping skills don't work, calling her is next on my list.

There's nothing to be ashamed of for having thoughts.