((((Alex)))))
Not wanting to leave T? Curling up in a ball will make you stay with him?
So sorry this is dragging up those difficult memories but you are integrating it now, eh?
I hope you and T can keep in contact occasionally by e mail as you said. That might help you know that this relationship will continue and will endure despite the break.
Hang in there. Have a great trip. You are brave.
Peace.