He called me and we did talk about, sadly it was minimal help. I didn't wanna ramble on the phone forever so I tried to keep it short.

He said randomly "You are not the first person to develop feelings for me" which is weird since he already knew about the friendship thing

Then he later randomly said "The weird thing is, if I had feelings for you, legally I have to refer you to someone else" I did not get the point of saying that at all.

I was pretty quiet. I wish I'd said more but ya he basically said that his office is a safe space but not a practice lab. Couples can't practice sex stuff in there so it was the same for me. He basically insinuated that he was associating touch with sex feelings... which is where my fear came from, early on he knew that I was scared of touching people because they would assume I wanted sex from them, and look where we are

My T is gone... its like a stranger I no longer know. I'm less comfortable with him already, I am not sure what I can even say anymore. I feel ****** but its good he called. Although he was completely straight laced, no jokes. Nothing normal feeling. He had no real answer for how I'm supposed to work through this if I can't practice with him. So I think he has no idea what to do with me. I'm hopeless