I find that the more time I have to "do nothing," the greater the chance that my assessment of the current therapeutic relationship turns to me wondering if we are "okay". Intellectually, I know we are but some feeling within me feels afraid. You've spent five years being consistent, with us being consistently okay, so I don't get why that part of me has so much trouble with it. I am trying to be compassionate with this part of me and will see how this works while I am cognizant that I am doing this.