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Old Jan 06, 2018, 03:20 PM
Anonymous58205
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Originally Posted by DP_2017 View Post
At times I thought he had feelings for me but no..... I was on the friendship side of it, other than my urges for psychical contact, not sexual. Like my biggest dream was to hang out and watch a movie together or go to the park with my dog. For me, I've never really wanted a romantic relationship with anyone. I have been tainted in so many ways for that to be a thing I truly want. Do I like him? Sure but as a person, he was funny and kind etc... Do I find him attractive? Nope. not in the slightest.


Honestly when I had these urges I cried after I left, because I felt wrong to even want simple touch from someone. There is no way I could ever actually be a romantic relationship with someone.... so I don't really "go there" feelings wise, I've always been in the friend zone with guys but like I said, several times, I and someone else I talk to about my T, had said he had feelings for me, I might of reflected off it a bit but no, I just want to be friends. However that is out the window now too so does not really matter


Did he ever disclose feelings for you?
It’s not wrong to want touch from someone, your feelings are totally appropriate and normal here, please don’t punish yourself for your feelings and urges. It was very brave to share them with your t, too bad he couldn’t handle them.
Is it so wrong to want somebody to care about us and to express that longing to them.
It hurts to be rejected after allowing ourselves to be vulnerable but you followed your path of the heart and allowed yourself to feel those feelings.

I really hope you have some support outside of therapy? It’s so hard to rely on our therapists when they are the very ones that sometimes cause this pain.
Hugs from:
Elio
Thanks for this!
Anonymous45127, DP_2017, Elio, LonesomeTonight