My ability to remember things has really taken a dive recently. It's not just the little things like some missing word or a misplaced item, I've done this for several years and know this can be expected because I am now in my fifties. Now it is big stuff, like full events for several days.
For example, one of the posters currently has a question about rexulti and its effects. I know I recently took rexulti because I have a half full bottle left. I think I took it for a couple of months, but I don't remember what it did for me or why I stopped taking it.
Another happening, at work the other day a group was talking about a former coworker that I should know. I pretended I did, but I have no recollection of who they were talking about, or what the event they were focusing on was about.
These missing memories along with several others seem to have happened in a time when I was in the most severe and lengthy depression that I know of, before I finally fell apart and ended up in the hospital. As far as I can estimate, I managed to survive for 10 months on auto pilot, going to work during the day and staying upbeat enough to get my t and pdoc to let me keep going. At home, I spent most of my time sleeping.
I hope that the memory losses are going to be a thing of the past, but I am afraid that these will keep happening or get worse. It just pops up so often now!
Maybe my brain is getting tired of all of the drugs, all of the time. I take drugs for MI, and for high BP, and for high cholesterol, and for a low functioning thyroid. Medications have changed quite often since my hospital stay in May/June because prescribed ap's only work for a couple of months, so far. My t wants me to go away to a program for trauma (ptsd from childhood), but this isn't financially possible.
I think I am finally coming unglued, and my body doesn't like all of the changes.
Sorry for the long post. If anyone has stuck with me, thanks for reading through my fears.
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