I appreciate all your honesty. I would guard against alcohol use, but I've gone that route before too, though it really only made matters worse, but I didn't know because I was blasted the whole time. Problems still persisted or stewed in their own crapulence.
The desire to booze it up... I wanted to drink this morning of all times because even the prazosin isn't helping this new batch of nightmares, but decided I'd rather try all four of the exercise classes today, after I hit the elliptical for 32 minutes. Great success!
Do you meditate or exercise or something positive to help?