I can't even describe the level of painful these nightmares are now. I'm not the one dying, which happens sometimes, but not me at all now. I am inside others bodies with them, and they are dying, one after another. Different scenery for each. It's like I'm painful death-hopping! Their inner voices are talking and they are feeling it and I'm in there experiencing it too but I can't say or do anything. Mostly they're all in different hospitals or ambulances or even nursing homes. It's all very disturbing.
I started back on prazosin after the second night of this but it's not helping at all. I think it kept me asleep last night so this could keep happening! I remember eight separate times last night. My dreams stay with me throughout the day which is a reason they put me on prazosin at the end of 2016. I stopped taking it because I stopped having THE ONE single nightmare and it dulled all my dreams.
I want to shake this, get past it, something, anything. This can't keep happening to me. It's making me feel bad a lot of the time, like I'm sick to my stomach and makes me feel this pain of emptiness and fading out during the day. I almost drank this morning because it had me so badly.
I suppose I've told a few of you that I'm ok. I apologize, but I haven't entirely been ok. I can shake it some by being very active, but it's still there.