I wasn’t trying to get an emotional response, I just had to explain why her suggestion can’t work for me. She remembered the issues with my mom, but she forgot what I told her about my father (don’t stress—I fought him off at age 13 when I got dumped at his house/my mom w/multi MI disappeared for two years).

I’m not trying to make anyone including her feel sorry for me. I’m just trying to get through *work* issues now. Anyway, she made some suggestion that doesn’t work for me, so I had to explain more childhood stuff today since that’s where she goes.

She is surprised that I’m functional. Her eyes teared up. She says I’m the picture of resilience.

I guess, but that’s not how I feel. I narrowly made it out of childhood alive and functional for sure. Two of my pets weren’t so lucky. It was horrific, and I’m not sure that it is helpful to dig into that stuff.

There was a time when I needed to talk about that childhood stuff, but it was a long time ago. She is telling me my anxiety and reactions to people in my work environment relate to childhood, as well as some other issues I told her about.

Anyway, I really like this therapist, and she is very experienced. But if she’s going to tear up when I explain things, it makes me not want to talk. I don’t like to make people get emotional.

Therapy was hard today. I don’t know what to think.